an "awesome-list" is the keyword people standardized on for whirlwind tours of software plugin or application ecosystems, that is:
awesome-shell is a curated list of command line utilitiesawesome-zsh is a curated list of zsh pluginsawesome-selfhosted is a curated list of selfhostable websppsbut also public transit, board games, urban and regional planning etc
the meta-list is at https://github.com/sindresorhus/awesome
When it comes to ways I can struggle with my neurodivergent traits and trying to not go hard on myself for my own struggles, I noticed myself falling into a pattern of explaining behaviour by referring to my brain.
My brain is so forgetful at the moment. Sorry can you say that again? My brain was just totally elsewhere. My brain just really does not want to absorb this information. My brain is not enjoying this busy crowd right now.
After a while I realised I was using it a lot, and there's nothing wrong with it but it felt like a form of distancing the lizard brain from the god brain. As if I'm not responsible for my actions, because this is just what I got goin' on up there and I didn't choose it.
Since I became consciously aware of it I actually noticed tons of people doing the same, like it's just some recent habit or meme people have picked up. Reflecting on it I decided to own my mind and behaviour: it is all me.
I'm so forgetful at the moment. Sorry, I was totally elsewhere. I can't absorb this information right now. I'm really not enjoying this busy crowd right now.
It's not even for any reason based in health, or morality, or responsibility. It's just that I don't want to build up this habit of dissociating my sense of self from fundamental aspects of the ways my mind operates. Because that's all me too, and who knows, maybe it's important to help build empathy with not only those I'm talking with, but myself too.
something real nice about having some simple desktop time at night. no goals, no endeavours, no projects. just customising some KDE and listening to Aphex Twin. clicking around, having a curious poke at things. click some toggles and see what happens. maybe update my packages, as a treat. what are Activities? I don't know but I might be about to find out. I'm loafing in a hammock made out of silly winamp visualiser-esque shader wallpapers (I went through every single one).
I'm on the computer, and that's OK.
